okay. im totally screwed up. beyond measures. and quoting my mum, all i can do is to depend and lean on God. thats about the only thing i can do. the week hadn't been good with results coming in, breaking and tearing my heart bit by bit. i'm at the rock bottom now. and i cant go any further down. i dont really wanna touch on this topic now.
on a lighter note, i see people who really care. the 3 guys who sit around me, trying to help me see where went wrong, comforting me when i cried, treating me to ice cream, telling me to study hard and not give up, patting me when i needed, asking if im alright and offering to help me. at the end of the day, it's still them who makes me smile, comfort me and put me on the right track once again. i dont care what others say about me mixing with you guys, but i know i didnt make a wrong choice.
in addition, i may have overcome some crap stuff about basketball no one knows it exist. the first thing i wanted to do after all the shit, was to play ball. and yes, i did. it just took away all my pain, turned me into a kid and enjoyed the game. thanks, definitely my basketball girls who accompanied me every time i needed someone. seeing me eat, shopping with me for tidbits, just being there and sharing with me. man, i love the team to bits.
i need to pick myself up. starting from.. next week. i will, i must.
at least i have something to be thankful and happy about. =)
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