sorry mum, sorry dad.
10:45 PM
well, 3 more days to mid years..
everyone's freaking out including me..
guess everyone feels the same, unprepared and stuff. so ain't gonna blog more about it. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
half of me feels like i wanna fall sick and skip mid years. the other half wants to face it and get 5 Us back. not like i havent done so.
the stupid renovations and drilings and poundings and pilings and whatever is still freaking unbearable.
on a lighter note.
just came back from basketball chalet. WHOHOOOOOO. had a damnnnnnnnnnn good time=). went to sentosa with only one hour of sleep to meet church youths plus malaysian youths. had a wonderful time too playing captain's ball and basketball.weeeee. sadly i didnt get sunburnt =( the two days of the holidays i actually went out.
1 more week of mugging for mid years..
but..
5 more months for A's.
and the STUPID RENOVATION IS KILLING ME! I CANT EVEN HEAR MYSELF.
what the shittttttttttt.
how the heck am i to study. THANKS A MILLION BILLION GAZILLION GOODNESSS.
okay. perhaps why im so angry is not just cause of the noise alone but cause I CANT DO MY FREAKING MATHS. ZzzzzZZZZZzZZZZ. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrr.
second week into the hols.
two more weeks to the end of the hols.
two more weeks to the start of the exam.
still using the computer very frequently. dont even know what i do with it.
i'm pretty happy with the hols cause i really slept alot ( not study alot sadly.)
even if i study nothing goes in.
only if i can be more discipline and use the remaining two more weeks to the fullest..
cliche saying, true though.
on the other hand,
having basketball chalet on thursday and friday.
sentosa outing with anshao on friday.
cycling plus bbq with anshao next next saturday.
=D
i wonder why all the outings came only in the last two weeks. ah well..
why should i even care when you didnt bother.
thoughts.
i wonder why people want their parents to fetch them up and down when they can travel themselves. apart from those who stays in private houses, having to walk deep deep down into the estate before getting home,or those who stays relatively far away from the bus stop/ train stations, or some unforeseen circumstances where quick transportation is needed, i really dont understand why people demand that their parents fetch them. after asking a few, their answers are firstly, lazy. secondly, tired. thirdly, faster. fourthly, more convenient. but i dont see any of these as a reason good enough. if you're lazy, why cant your parents be lazy as well? if you're tired, arent your parents tired too? if it's faster, wont it be slower for your parents cause they've to make a detour just to send you to whereever? if it's convenient for you, wont it inconvenient your parents because they've to go out of the way just to give you a lift? i admit i was like that when i was younger. i never did need to take any form of public transport. but, i've stopped. especially this year. once in a while, yes, because of time constrain or rain. but not on a daily nor weekly basis. not. at. all. it's not that my parents love me less than any of theirs do, but i think they deserve their fair bit of rest. it pains me to see them waking up earlier to just fetch me to school, or having to come home slightly later just to pick me home when they can rest for a little longer. they've their rights to do whatever they want to instead of ferrying me around. what do i deserve that any way? cause i'm their little princess? sorry, no. i am still their little gem though i dont get ferried around. they're getting old, at least my parents are. they need to rest too. working and doing house work is bad enough. having them fetch me is already a benefit for me. so, i demand no more from them.. perhaps people should think for their parents rather than for themselves alone..
next, i realised im really fortunate. after hearing stories about how poor people are, i really must must must admit that i'm so much better off than them. i dont have any financial difficulties, i have whatever i want, i get to learn what i want to and i have a complete family with loving parents and brother and not much family problems except some bickering here and there. what more can i ask for? my parents have provided me with a house to stay in, my room to myself, a personal computer, a personal tv, a phone, good food to eat, sufficient allowance to live, alot of freedom and so much more. i have friends that love and care for me, friends to play sports with, friends to do heart-to-heart talks with, friends to eat with, play with, spend time with, talk rubbish, study with, travel with, complain to, fool around with, meet with and most importantly, pray with. i cant imagine life without any of them.. wow, wonderful life i have, i really have to say.
i dont know whats wrong with me. i've been sleeping alot, dont feel like eating ( not even food i used to like, nor proper meals), wanting to vomit, not wanting to do anything. i've been dreaming (in my sleep) alot about stupid things, thinking about things like basketball ( alot, alot)almost every night and doing very random things. i miss alot of random people, bethel youths, secondary school friends, basketballers ( senior and team mates), anshao ( though i see them every week!, aj seniors and the list goes on. everything feels wrong, shit. tell me whats wrong, some one.
badminton tomorrow and bbq on 26 with anshao =).
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more
And I want you to know
That I'm not letting go
Even when you come undone
And I see you
And I made you
And I love you more than you can imagine
More than you can fathom
I love you more than the sun
And you shine for me
i'll shine, for Him, who loves me more than any thing He created..
this is my desire, to be used by You. =)
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