im loving my girls alot alot more these days.
matches.
dinner.
saddness.
facts.
talk.
care.
love.
soon, bond.=)
thanks for giving me the support today by turning up! =)
quit quit quit.
im a quitter.
i'll quit.
i'll quit aikido.
i'll quit piano.
what else do you want me to quit?
basketball?
church?
school?
i've been living a life since 4 for you.
all you do is pay pay pay.
and i have to learn learn learn,
trying to turn all the costs into benefits.
what do i get?
somehow,
im missing people alot alot more these days.
sigh.
whatever.
sorry.
i dont dare lean any closer.
cause we'll soon need to part.
my friend recently asked me.
does God really answer prayers?
and now, i am very certain He does.
through the period of promos, i kept asking God to show me the way.
if it's the right path, may i be able to promote naturally without retest or retaining.
when i got back chem, i knew passing 2 H2s was impossible already.
when i got back gp, i heaved a sigh of relief.
when i got back maths, i knew i was almost dead.
when i got back physics, i knew i was dead.
when i got back econs, i knew it was the end of the world.
i failed all 4 H2s.
apparently, i didn't cry, i didn't even feel sad.
i just felt calm.
with friends around me, even calmer.
the day just went by,
and i still kept praying, praying, praying,
my bros and sis in christ continued praying for me too.
when i got the master sheet ( after moderation and all )the next day,
guess what.
I PASSED 2 H2 AND 2 H1!!!!!
i didnt even need to go for retest nor get retained.
HOW GREAT CAN GOD BE?!?!
200++ people didn't make it.
and yet i did.
and i passed, on the dot 45.
what more can i say?
merciful God.
=)
it wasn't luck.
it was God's grace.
so.. does prayer work?
it does.
definately does. =).
though my results suck,
i still want to thank God.
for the people, that stood by me up till now,
giving me hugs, making me laugh, making me smile.
for my grades, cause it's better than some others still,
though i may not get promoted.
for the people, who trusted in my ability.
the road ahead, im unsure.
but i know that.
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
2 Corinthians 12:9
i love impromptu meetings.
yesterday went out with sarah for lunch after school,
then orchard after piano.
today went out with daryl after school for lunch.
and that chicken backside made me walk all the way to his school and back to interchange ><
had a great great time with them. =)
finally, after nearly a week,
everything's back to normal.
and we're finally talking.
all the best for O's boy.
remember what you promised me,
0 regrets. jiayou.
initially.很累很累很累.
after reading. 更累更累更累.
its a mixture of 我不知道要怎样 and 我不管了.
aikido was superb.
love the instructor though the moves were tough, knees were sore. but had great great fun =).
made me even more 累.
i miss talking to people.
( this goes out to more than 1 person. )
but i miss talking to people i talk to everyday.
blame O's. blame A's. blame army.
that, makes me even more 不高兴不高兴不高兴.
i know im not supposed to question You, Lord.
but why did i do so badly?
why? =(
but Lord,
i still want to thank you for my wonderful teachers,
Your other sons and daughters,
who offered to pray for me.
i cried till my eyes went sore,
i ran till my legs went soft,
i thought till my head when spinning.
i really dont know what you want,
how to make you better,
how not to make you worse off.
you care, and i do too.
tell me straight to stop talking to you if i make you feel worse.
i'll gladly stop.
i feel so helpless, so helpless at times.
cause i.cant.help.you.
tired the shit out of me.
results coming back.
HOHO.
oh God, thanks for the weather. =)
ohhhhhhhhhhhh my gosh.
im so so sorry.
didnt mean to. =(.
The most comforting words, does not come from man, but comes from the bible and christian songs.
The most blessed thing, is to have God taking care of everything.
once my teacher, now my friend =)
so grateful, so grateful for that.
i know you feel =(, seeing your once top student stumble, fall, thanks for your encouragements, thanks for helping me so much, dropping me msges, visiting me at the funeral, giving me care when i need, being =( cause of me. but, i promise, like how i always did in the past, to do my best. i may not be the top, but what matters most is doing my best. isn't that what our class's "mummy" use to say? so please dont be =( but =) okay? =) i know you care.
learning to be thankful,
learning to appreciate.
God, i know you answer prayers..
promos are finally
O.V.E.R
i've been waiting for this day for 1 billion years!!!
but, it made me learn things.
not facts like geosatellites having a period of 24 hours or how a diol can be formed by H2S04 with KMn04 or anything like this.
but, it taught me how important my friends, family and God are.
i wont have gotten so far ( my far means get over with promos.) without any of them.
i have church friends praying for me,
i have church friends telling me i can do it,
i have j2s encouraging me all the way,
i have j2s teaching me despite their upcoming A levels,
i have friends wishing me all the best every single day,
i have friends asking me how the paper went after every paper,
i have friends who tells me to believe in the power of God,
i have friends tolerating my horrible moodswings,
i have new friends asking me how studying's going,
i have aikido friends asking me why i havent been for training for weeks,
i have piano friends telling me to not give up,
i have classmates to push me and encourage me every single time i want to give up.
no greater can that be.
i thank God for these friends, for beliving in me, for supporting me through the week, for bringing joy into my life. can definately, without them, i would have given up a long long time ago. and, thank you my dear friends. =)
and,
i have a family who cares,
i have a family who understands,
i have a family to pray with,
i have a family to have dinner with,
i have a family who showers me with love,
i have family who spends money pumping me with chicken essence, bird nest, and stuff like that everyday,
i have a family who cooks for me,
i have a family who comforts me,
i have a family who tells me it's alright after every fall,
i have a family who is there for me,
i love my family, despite all the quarrels and pain we've been through.
Thank God for giving me such a wonderful family, parents who brought me up, brother for giving me rubbish.
and,
i thank God for himself,
i thank God for being there,
i thank God for comforting me,
i thank God for answering my prayers,
i thank God for guiding me,
i thank God for leading me,
i thank God for moulding me,
i thank God for saving me,
i thank God for watching me,
i thank God for loving me,
i thank God for the storms that made me grow,
i thank God for every little thing.
i realised,
i've been getting things far too easily.
i didnt need to go through much before i got what i wanted in the past.
and, it's time i learn to take stress, learn to deal with things, in order to get what i want, what i deserve.
may i stay or leave, all in God's merciful hands.
for the first time in history,
im shitting on my pants cause of exams.
give me peace Oh Lord,
give me wisdom,
give me strength.
i surrender.
badly need to, badly want to.
10:53 PM
if there was any reason for going to buy lunch at 2.30pm,
i think it's cause.
i miss you.
like it was,
msging you made me laugh,
seeing you made me smile.
like i was,
always proud of you.
for your excellent grades,
for your bewildering array of bombastic words,
for everything that you have.
what if..
what if..
what if..
i don't make it?
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