' running a never ending road______

Sunday, March 25, 2007

alright. so starting from wednesday, i went to the hospital again. well, missed art ssp and SMO. i seem to keep missing SMO. arghh. any way. so my report was out. BENIGN! decided to go for lunch at like 4 plus. was hungry lah. but see the food, didnt want to eat. had piano lessons. fun! so thursday, had learning carnival. had the science challenge in which my class WALKED OVER! both for cheer and caltapult.followed by some breifing. recess and had some finiancial talk. lunch and had our ettique course. was quite okay. xD. so after that, went to shop and save with yenling and dom tan to get some snacks. yen ate like 4 buns and so did dom tan. made my way back after accompanying them. so yeah. SKIPPED!! 300 times. friday was a long day. had lost in chinatown in the morning. grouped with zhi yin, aobin, nini and yenling. aobin was sick lah. so yen had to call poh to ask him what to do, but any way, i let her rest while me, nini and yenling went to find the clues. quite fun actually. copied some answers. =/. so yeah. reached back. my wound was like crap. then had lunch. after lunch was science centre. i told poh aobin wasnt feeling well, so sent her back. science centre was quite fun. poh was suprisingly in charge of my class with this teacher i dont know. and our class had people MIA-ing. lol. then first, i was damn sian lah. we made ice cream. first group to form, one of the last to get to eat. so we were trying to dig so hard. and we forced poh to eat. LOL. then we were like eating every bit lah. but in the end, not many finished. haha. so we learnt about liquid nitrogen. quite fun. the experiments rocks!. came back for dinner at like 4.30!!. on the way back, some girls were so noisy. and i actually fell asleep. -.-. and they woke me up. practically scaring me. so ate and saw nicholas and gang playing basketball. ulric was playing soccer =/. so waited for them to finish playing. then their ball fell over the locked gate. then a gymnast actually climbed through a hole. coool. any way, finally they cleared. so we played basketball. i made one damn nice shot. xDD. after a while, went up for movie. and lit night. lit drama was quite nice. followed by move. the grave of the fire flies. slept abit. but overall the show was okay. so many people cried lahh. zZz.went back after accompanying ellice and han yu. yup. was hungry, but ate fruits. saturday, went for art lessons and tuition. came back, skipped 700 times. then went back for dinner. rested and ran for 1 hour from 830 to 930. ran to serangoon gardens then gymed and ran back. kor was pushing and scolding me at the same time lah. 1 hour leh. tired!!!. plus muscle aches from lost in chinatown. then rested. bathe and yeah. didnt study much. then today, went for walk-a-jog. about 2 km. no kick lah.=). then after that rested and yeah. went to the hawker centre. ate lor mee and porridge and a cup of soya bean with chin chow. xDD. so went to swim in the club. sun taned for half an hour. and fell asleep while doing so. lala~. so yeah. back and i keep sleeping these days. crap. ahhh. always sleeping my day away. yesterday morning slept the whole morning too. ahhhhh. need to study. must do well for mid year!!!. any way. God bless xD

* happy brithday to jolene, andrea.
* happy birthday in advance to lecia.
* happy belated birthday to zikang.

and i no longer feel you.

6:09 PM

died__

Saturday, March 17, 2007

you're in JC.
and im left with nothing.
i lost one.
and now i lost you.

9:15 AM

died__

Friday, March 16, 2007

yo. so wednesday, i went to remove the stitches of my wound. it was like, so pain lah. the more she remove, the more pain it is. then it bled. =(. so went to change guaze and stuff. 5 hours later, the guaze was full of pus. so mum changed it. it hasnt been good. everyday after wednesday, there would be pus. even today. sigh. so yup. mum doesnt allow me to go for piano lessons. and I AM NOT TO EXERCISE FOR ONE MORE WEEk. like wth. i thought 1 was enough. and it extends to two. crap. sigh. so yeah. have been going for poh's maths lesson. on wednesday, went with belinda. did logarithms. and i finally know my logarithms. xD. then me and belinda did ALL the questions instead of alternated. hardworking us, no choice. so after lessons, went for lunch with poh opposite school. damn funny lah. andd. my wallet has no money lar!! all papers okay. >.<. had chicken rice. after lunch, went back to school. wanted to do HCL at first. but in the end did maths. poh's homework. so in the afternoon, went to remove stitches. mum have been bathing me. =/. any way. thursday, went for poh lessons again. belinda was sick. so she didnt go. only minyi, pamela, cheeyew, desmond, zheng yong and bon went. so yup. again, i was the last to leave. cheeyew waited for me. so decided to go to plaza to catch the messengers since he wanted to. so, we were walking towards the mrt when out of no where, pamela popped out. so we asked her to join us. and she started teasing us lah. -.-. we are so innocent. mum said she and dad wanted to watch just follow law. so i bought three tickets for the 7.05 show. we caught the 3pm show for messengers. so after lunch at mos, we went to yamaha. and raided yamaha. we were like playing the piano although there were signs saying " no practising is allowed." but me and cheeyew still played. LOL. so messengers is a horror movie. quite nice. but people were laughing at the wrong time. like ZzzZz lah. then there was this insane guy beside cheeyew. he was telling people all over him to shut up. as though the theatre was his. he say things like " jesus christ. can you guys just shut up" or something. crazy fellow. so the movie ended at around 4.55 cheeyew and pamela left soon after. roamed plaza sing after that. met mum and dad at the mrt station at like 6. decided to eat long john silver. and met deseire, tinghao and two others, i forgot their name. =X. so yup. after that went to carfull to get a packet of chips. decided to go up. i dunno why. just for law is funny. my dad laughed. my mum laughed. but i just cant seems to laugh. the show was okay. i cant laugh. i cant bring myself to laugh. maybe i was tired. sigh. i sleep at 2 so often during the holidays. but my homework pile doesnt even seem to go down. its like, no matter how much i do, i cant seem to complete them. its friday today. and what homework have i completed? none. maybe my motivator isnt here. thats why i cant bring myself to do. i no longer can depend on him. no longer. any way, slept at near 3, woke up at 6 plus today. went for SMO. then went for poh's lesson again. i still think there is room for improvement. hmm. must pump my other subjects as well. friday, saturday and sunday. i have to do something. i slept from 2- 6pm today. wasted my whole afternoon. so i intend to study till 3am or 4am later. and i will. so after lessons, me and nini lunched with poh again. when we were walking there, this china scholar jaywalked. so he was like. jaywalk. and walked back to lecture him. after that, while waiting for our lunch, my thana jay walked. damn funny lah!! zZz. came home, practised piano and slept! still cant believed i slept for FOUR HOURS off my afternoon. time to bathe. God bless. xD. oh yeah. before that, i realised, poh likes to play with my nike bottle. -.-. bleagh.

and you waved to me xD.

6:08 PM

died__

Sunday, March 11, 2007

crap. i know i cant do any sports for one damn week. so people. stop telling me about basketball. stop telling me about gym. STOP TELLING ME ABOUT ANY DAMN SPORTS ALRIGHT! crap that wound. crap those stitches. CRAP THEM.

12:59 AM

died__

Friday, March 09, 2007

[edited 10/3/07]
yo. so went for operation today. didnt go to school. last night, i recieved many msges telling me good luck and stuff. i was touched, knowing that my friends around me all cared. any way,woke up at like 7.30 and prepared. well, so reached the hospital at 9. then went to register and stuff. was brought to this operating theatre. i was told to change into this gown. it was wierd. two layers. plus something like a shower cap. so was brought in to check details like IC and stuff as well as blood pressure. my blood pressure was below average. oh well, any way. the nurse checked TWICE with me the exact questions. then i came out to talk to mum. prof soo came after like 45 minutes of waiting. so yup. was brought into the threatre. lying down, the lights were like so scary. and they stripped me. prof soo started touching my cyst and my armpit. so well yup. gave me anesatia. dunno how to spell. two jabs. local one. but they covered me with a thick blanket. and plastics. but i was still so cold. then they put the plastic thing over my face. so my hand was numbed. i was shivering of fright and cold. so, prof soo was asking if i could feel anything. and well. i couldnt. curious me was wondering what the hell was happening. but soon enough, after waiting and waiting, one nurse told me, its all done. i smiled. but i wondered what will happen after i got up from the bed. slowly, i got up. with prof soo assuring everything is fine. thankfully, i felt okay. took blood pressure again. my blood pressure was even lower. i was seriously wondering what is wrong with me. every thing seems to go wrong. sigh. so there was this aunty who told me that cyst will spread. and that it is because of stress which causes it to spread. oh well. any way. after changing back, i was told that no exercise for a week =(. crap. then changed back to normal clothes. but my guaze by then was soaked with blood. so i was told to go back in to get it changed. i saw the stitches. blue in colour. and the cut seems long. like slightly lesser then 2cm. biggg. had like 5- 7 stitches. gosh. so rested for a while. while mum settled some admin work. so after feeling alright, we set off. panadol was my medicine. but i dont think it was of use. oh well. so went to eat lunch. then went back in a taxi. at home, without bathing. i slept for 3 hours straight. mum made pizza for dinner. xD so, after waking up, i saw yenling's msg. telling me homework and my emaths results. was so happy for my emaths. =). so after that started pacing up and down and decided to go online. wow. i have friends asking me how stuff were. sadly, yesterday, my wound kept bleeding. till my guaze was red. time passed and time for dinner. well, spent my night msning as well. so yeah. mr poh told me my amaths marks. oh well. 2nd for emaths, 6th for amaths. i failed amaths lah. =(. so yup. slept at like 1.3oam.

10/3/07
woke up, realised my wound stopped bleeding. scratched my hair non stop. wasnt supposed to bathe, but went to. mum helped me with my hair cause it was too itchy. i changed my guaze myself. my mum was like using alcohol to wipe my arm area. which is like so wierd lah. any way. so went to art friend and popular before art lessons. spent like 55 in art friend and 60 in popular. stocked up with stuff. hopefully, it would last me for a couple of months. well, went for art lessons. did watercolour today. wasnt really that nice. but oh well. yup. so went for tuition. tuition was alright. went to meet mum at the office while she was talking to the principal. followed by going to the wallet shop to buy a wallet. my wallet says. " of all the wallets in all the world that money an buy, I AM STUCK WITH THIS" i just love the words. not really the colour. spent like 25 on it. i think i have used sufficient of my mum's money. so yeah. played piano secretly since no one is home. thats all. God bless.

* thanks yenling.
* thanks, my dear friends.
* thanks mum.
* enjoy yourselves, bethel youth.

9:50 PM

died__

Saturday, March 03, 2007

so yeah. havent been posting. rather exhausted by everything around me. tests and more tests. pushing friends to study and sleep when i myself dont even do so. well, played basketball during pe today. had sports day field events. i took part in shot put and discus. after school had amaths test, which i think i will fail. followed by smo. but went for lunch. when we entered IT resource room, not even 10 minutes later, they said that all participants have to report. so i packed my bag and went again. had severe gastric. and i couldnt even start properly for shot put. but i think i got third in the end. CONGRATS YING! ying currently is second place. any way. so. was raining so didnt have discus. postpone to monday. and, me and qian yi went to the piano for a while. she's so pro lah. then went up to watch high jump. followed by went to study at first. but ended up playing basketball. my skills are starting to suck. cant get in any. except a few. so played in the rain. matched with ade, jack, qian yi, felicia, and three others. then the floor was so wet and slippery that many fell. jack fell. so we stopped playing. but after that me, jack, ade, qian yi versus yun sheng, ronathan and jonah. and they are so tall. so fun. but i was wet after that. then there was this impulse to say hi to cz. so i just went up and said hi. dumb lah.. any way. well, next week, 3 common test on monday. plus discus and cca. wth. life is so busy. so many things to do, so much homework. feel totally sick. i feel like running and running non stop. till maybe i'll faint some day. then cz has to drill some dao li into me again. wth. totally exhausted. no time to rest lah. and im getting more and more rash. sigh. =(. tomorrow, theres LAOS gathering! WOO HOO. xD followed by art lessons and tuition. then i have to start mugging again. my life is so dull. mug, mug, mug and mug. crap. okay. shall end. God bless. =)

i hope this continues.
forever and ever.
never changing.
and i'll just stand far away.
watching you without you knowing.

12:13 AM

died__