sheesh. worried.
i dreamt of you.
i want my psp.
im going to turkey.
i never knew
there was any one with such great importance.
till last thursday and monday,
i realised.
how weird the feeling was.
causing me to screw up my two important papers, which i rightfully should get an A.
oh well, whatever my score is.
i dont care.
what i know is.
for my other papers, im gonna do my best ( like what mrs nigam says.)
cause God has plans for me.
its nice to recieve a msg before the paper.
and another msg after the paper. =).
it makes me feel confident.
wish me luck.
art.
i suddenly wanna get a PSP!
Dont expect too much from me.
I dont think i will do that well.
Dont ask me why.
But i know, God has plans for me.
if i'm mad
you're insane
i dont see the freaking problem
You are the one who is insane.
you broke your bed.
try breaking mine?
come on.
i DONT need a bed to sleep =)
i can sleep ANY WHERE AND EVERY WHERE xDD
and no matter how dramatic things you can do, IT WONT MOVE ME !
i hope you go to jail =)
than go into some boys home.
WOOOPS, i forgot you're eighteen. no more boys home.
oh no. or go to the army and die there.
if you're jealous JUST SAY.
you dont need to do all these extreme things right.
you can ALWAYS just admit it.
besides, you're always the one who DOESNT sleep in the room.
why suddenly come?
and, you switched on the air con, i didnt do anyything.
till after lets see, 4 hours, i offed it.
any problem with that?
no?. good. =)
but, my precious daddy has to pay for whatever you want, whatever you broke
like. you spent 300 on a dunno what kind of ear phone, and 200 on an mp3.
did i say anything? NO!
but now, my daddy has to pay for whatever you broke. the BED. like HELLO!.
i hope your grades arent good enough to get you to any way. and you have to depend on our parents. THEN, you know the importance of money.
dont you ever think?
any way, i wont be coming home for dinner. NOT EVER AGAIN.
you can have all the fish.
and go serve your son.
i'll use my allowance and live with it. three meals.
I CAN SURVIVE.
i'll come home at 10. I SWEAR.
i'll sit in school until it closes
i'll sit downstairs at the void deck.
you dont want me to do well for o levels?
sorry, watch me.
you dont want me to do well for A levels?
WATCH ME.
This family it falling A-P-A-R-T
and i no longer bother saving it.
let it fall.
i dont need any thing from my family already.
your are not willing to give any way.
just give me my damn allowance.
and, i wont bother.
its good to have lesser people giving you trouble.
just let me sleep and bathe.
dont even need to feed me.
but. i love daddy still. he's the only one who bothers loving me, bothers going all out to get things for me, bothers even asking how i am.
i have been having this blog for 4/5 years, and yet this is my 200th post. wow.
16 more days to o levels. im scared, for humans and languages. my doomed subjects. no matter how much i know i must study, i still dont want to. i dunno why. am i courting death? i cannot get below a B3 for both my english and humans. its a NONO. and i only have ONE humans. ss/hist. rah.
everything's so screwed. irresponsible. blame it on me for not being cautious enough.
have been hitting bed as early as 630 these days. very tired. and i spend like 10 hours sleeping instead of studying. wow.
mummy is making the house a shit place for me to study in. her never ending complains and rants and threats and what-so-ever.
4 hours of maths later on.
feels sleepy after 9 hours of sleep.
went to blade at ecp on wednesday with parents. had mac grittles for breakfast =). i travelled for like 15 minutes, THE SCREW IN MY FIRST WHEEL CAME OUT, causing me to land with a great thud. i practically have to walk for an hour before i reach to where daddy and mummy was. than rested while dad went to the shop to help me change my wheel. and guess who i met? MY MAMA! ( mrs ngiam .xD) and she was black on thursday. haha.
i find studying at night super unproductive. rather, i find studying AT HOME super unproductive.
i have wonderful friends, dropping me encouraging msges and notes=). THANKS!
what i wanna do after Os. ( motivation)
- PLAY PIANO
- DO SHOPPING
- LEARN A SPORTS
- LEARN A NEW INSTRUMENT
- SLEEP LIKE NO ONE'S BUSINESS
- EXERCISE
- GO OUT OUT and OUT!
- GO BACK FOR ART LESSONS
- GO HOLIDAY!
- SERVICE MORE
thats about it.
grad day is on next friday. when most schools are already on study break. wow. my study break is like ONE week of which i think i still have to go to school. CRAP CRAP CRAP. i think im weak; i sccumb under pressure. ( * you know what i mean. )
please please please pray for me.
bring me through baby. =)
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