suddenly, i feel very tired of life. i'm happy, no doubt. but now, i feel like my life is like a routine. i dont even have any time for myself, nor studies, nor God. i've been reaching home at 10 like the past few days and the subsequent days. i'm so tired. i miss my home so much now. this week made it even worse cause of addition stuff like j1/2 bonding and cca leaders meeting with principal that sucked up all my only free time of the week. wednesdays are the essential rest time i get from the hectic and horrible week cause i've no training and lesson ends early. and this week, it's gone.i've two more training days i need to last. and i'm tired when i havent even surpass the first half of the week. i.n.e.e.d.m.y.r.e.s.t. what made it even worse is that nationals for basketball is pushed back, 7 weeks from now. i wonder how i can even last in that 7 weeks when i'm already half dead. being the captain, i know the whole team depends on me to keep the spirit, the morale up high. and thats the only reason why i haven't collapsed. i cant keep falling down, rolling over and picking up myself like how i did( physically). if only that was mentally so as to keep pushing me. if only next week was holidays.. just give me 5 hours for myself, and is all i demand. thankfully, the three amazing guys keep me laughing in school, making school more interesting and bearable for me with all their rubbish. i wonder how mundane school would be like without them. their stupid and dirty jokes and actions really brightens my day everyday. they accept the nonsensical part of me, whereby i can totally be myself. but.. i miss having a guy to lean on at times.
when everyone is down in the shit..
i have..
God, my shelter, my comfort, my refuge.
in You i put my hope.
hold on to me Lord, for i need You.
oh please Lord.
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