after 18 years of reunion dinner,
today,
is the first time,
without my aunt,
with mum and dad preparing it fully
and, without a maid.
not that the maid part does matter, but while eating, i had a weird feeling. like something, someone, was missing. and i clearly knew that it was aunt ( maybe a little of having a maid?). i remembered how much i thought she was troublesome, in the way and everything. but i start to miss her. i start to miss her presence, i start to miss how she'd send me to the bus stop everyday, i start to miss her creeping into my room every night. i start to miss her keeping food for me, i start to miss how i'd complain to her about stuff. i start to miss her encouragements and i start to miss saying hello to her every time i step into the house. most importantly, i miss her, herself, her being. there're so many regrets, that i dare not think. regret not taking a photo with her when uncle offered, regret not visiting her before her death due to mid years, regret not giving her more to eat, regret not spreading the gospel to her, regret not treating her better, regret not thanking her, regret not spending more time with her. there are so much so much more. as the saying goes " we only learn to treasure after losing it" and i cant agree more with the statement. oh well.. all i can do now is to study hard and do her proud like how she has always wanted me to. and, i will.
on a lighter note, today is the FIRST day since school started that i can wake up as late as i want, sleeping to my heart's contend. when i was younger, i used to think staying at home is such a bore. but now, staying at home is like a rare opportunity i won't want to miss. studies still have to go on despite the festive season, that, i know. but, the thought of being able to stay home, with my whole family, is sufficient for me even if my head is stuck in my books. perhaps it'd be even better if aunt was around still..
last but not least, happy chinese new year and happy valentine's day. =D
profile
W
For God so love the world that he gave his one and only son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but shall have enternal life. John 3:16
mail.
♥
likes
my bed
my computer
my friends
my handphone
family
Aikido
God
dislikes
parting.
wants
stop being a jack ass
closer to God
mature
excel in art and sports
find something i really love doing.
archives
November 2004;
December 2004;
January 2005;
February 2005;
March 2005;
April 2005;
May 2005;
June 2005;
July 2005;
August 2005;
September 2005;
October 2005;
November 2005;
December 2005;
January 2006;
February 2006;
March 2006;
April 2006;
May 2006;
June 2006;
July 2006;
August 2006;
September 2006;
October 2006;
November 2006;
December 2006;
January 2007;
February 2007;
March 2007;
April 2007;
May 2007;
June 2007;
July 2007;
August 2007;
September 2007;
October 2007;
November 2007;
December 2007;
February 2008;
March 2008;
May 2008;
June 2008;
July 2008;
August 2008;
September 2008;
October 2008;
November 2008;
December 2008;
January 2009;
February 2009;
March 2009;
April 2009;
May 2009;
June 2009;
July 2009;
August 2009;
September 2009;
October 2009;
November 2009;
December 2009;
January 2010;
February 2010;
March 2010;
April 2010;
May 2010;
June 2010;
July 2010;
August 2010;
September 2010;
October 2010;
November 2010;
December 2010;
January 2011;
February 2011;
March 2011;
April 2011;
May 2011;
January 2012;
tagboard