' running a never ending road______

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Good day to all. =)

the first week of school is over, with tests already coming up. feel totally tired, shagged, drained and fatigue when it's just the first week. thankfully training was canceled on friday so i had sufficient time to recuperate. totally needed that rest and time to catch up with school work. being the ever so slow person i am in catching stuff, i already felt that lessons was going at too fast a pace for me to catch up. nevertheless, i have no choice. oh well.. but i think my teachers are good. i believe better than last year for some. so i should be contented =). had a few meetings with council here and there for events like agm, open house, cca showcase and stuff like that. feel that some councilors ought to go for further training in order to deliver better and clearer speeches and briefings. ( my opinion. don't be insulted. no personal attack..) but at the same time, there're good speakers in council too.

shared with anshao my experience on how good and graceful God is and ended up crying. just dawned on me how thankful i should be, now that i've successfully gone through j1. remembered vividly that day when i got back my results, with kb and mel hugging me. and i was desperately telling them i didnt want a retest. cant forget that day still.. so scary, so disheartened.

went for baby ryan's first month and wow. there were so many babies there! like 10! serious. took some photos using bro's camera worth 6k. cant post any cause my computer cant read the files and he lent the disc to his friend. rah. next time maybe.. after my photography skills improves =). supposed to visit the zoo ( i typed library initially which shows that i'm thinking about work ><) after the lunch but whole family decided to give it a miss.

hope the next week and next weekssss will go fine.

friday suddenly gave me a feeling that my friends around me in jc are so fake, so fake. i dont know which is the true them, can i trust them or whatsoever. some of their actions make me feel like they are just putting up a show in school, whereby school is merely just a stepping stone to get into university. all of our ultimate aim is to get into uni, that i dont deny. unfortunately, they give me a feeling that they do not treasure any friendships and all that matters is studies studies studies. whatever is done in school is just an act and when they go out of the school or away from school friends, they return to their trueself. i dont know if it's true or not, but it gives me this feeling. i miss the good old school days in secondary school, where i had this group of 5 to go to, where we are ourselves, at home, in school, where ever. it's not just a friendship in school, but a friendship in and out of school. it's a friendship where by i see effort put in, whereby it's treasured by both parties.. guess this explains my black face on friday. sigh.. but, on the other side of the coin, i have realllllllllly good friends, whom i call friends for a reason =D. what more can i ask for?

guangyi just gently reminded me that we should start studying for A's soon. even he, the lazy guy is reminding me. guess that's all i should do now, casting away all my irrelevant, depressing thoughts..

the 4 people i msg nearly every day, is something i wont want to lose.. not at all.

bro just dumped me with national geographic and times magazine to read. sometimes, i'm really glad to have him. sometimes, he's just horrible vegetable.

3:38 PM

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