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Friday, December 25, 2009

BLESSED CHRISTMAS everyone! =DD

went out with daryl like FINALLY after so long yesterday for lunch and just roam around orchard. met gerard, which was pretty random. decided to talk to him and we were both coincidentally going to town. so yeap. at least managed to catch up with him before he returns to school. both daryl and gerard. walked with daryl from orchard to somerset to dhoby ghuat to little india cause i insisted and being nice, he accompanied me to church.=X afternoon with him was awesome, going to borders to read random books like 150 things a man should know and stuff. followed by carolling with church. first stop was sophia foodmall and the girls were cam whoring half way ><. second was gao mama. and she almost made me tear. goodness. the way she smiled so so widely when we sang the carols, taking the effort to hug all of us.. it really made me want to tear. my heart was so so warmed by her. thank God for blessing her so abundantly up till now! followed by a few more houses and count down. we got super high towards the end ( facebook for videos.) to sum up, christmas eve was totally f.u.n. =D.

service today plus choir. screwed up a little cause the songs were quite tough to sing. ah well. after service, started giving cards and recieved quite a number this year as well. =) the anshao room knob was spoilt and there were people inside! pretty scary for a moment. eventually, they got out from another door. aaaah. scary. thank God there was another door. lunched with family and home. pretty tired cause slept quite little, thus rejected mum for grocery shopping.

i see us a one in christ body now. but when the new year starts.. are we all going to come together, being so bonded or are we gonna be separated like the previous years? we really need to bring more and more people to christ because we do not have enough time. but we, ourselves must be filled with the Holy Spirit, work together as a youth group, not any youth group, but a christian youth group. we are all filled with the Holy Spirit now. we are all renewed. but can we make it last? can our fire for God continue burning and burning like now? can we? it's between each individual and God. i know it's going to be a challenge for me as well as the A level year unfolds. but, i know we have to keep encouraging each other, to continue to keep the fire burning, to continue that desperate want to seek for God. and i really hope, those who used to be so so devoted to God, to come back, come back to Him. He is waiting with open arms, always. Go back to Him, no matter who we are today, or what our past was. we just need to go back to God, cause He is all we ever ever need. God, may you bless anshao. <3, many many.
( no personal attack here.)
furthermore, we can be christians openly. compared to so much more people out there, in other countries, getting killed for being christians. lets not talk about countries far far away, but take singapore. i have friends, around us, that cant be christians openly because of their parents. shouldn't we treasure this faith EVEN MORE? shouldn't we stop taking for granted all these good good opportunities? shouldn't we go back to God because we CAN unlike others? shouldn't we..? there's alot, alot to reflect about.. alot. It's not easy being christians, but WE ARE. only WE can change. if we christians dont do it, WHO will? can we make more effort for God? can we come to church promptly? can we worship him out loud? can we give him our time? i think if God can give His son for us, why cant we give Him back a little..? just a little? these has been going on in my mind for quite a while.. i guess i'm part of it too.

There're still some friends, whom i still wish to continue being in contact with. and to those i recently contacted after so long, i hope that we'd still keep in contact.. like seriously, in contact.

sometimes, i feel as though i'm always the one taking initiative, in everything..
sometimes, i feel people are being so bei1 dong.
sometimes, i feel like giving up everything, everyone.
sometimes, i feel that i've made a big big mistake in things i do.
sometimes, i feel that whatever i've done is wrong.
sometimes, i feel that i've disappointed many people.
sometimes, i feel that everything is against me - people, things.
sometimes, i feel that the world should end at this point of time.
sometimes, i feel that i am the biggest loser on earth - studies, life, everything.
but Jesus came, for me, for you, for us. =D

i bet everyone feels like that at times though..

80% of what we worry does not happen, 12% of what we worry has passed, only 8% of what we worry is worth worrying about.

today is a joyous day. so i should be happy and joyful =D.

and, the things people around me do, really motivates me. no matter where, home, church, basketball, school. really glad for them. =) i'll post more about them in the subsequent post cause without them, i wont even get through this year..

kaiwen, you freaking need to study. stop going out.

ASHER BOOK - Try
If i walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If i say you're the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song, would you sing along?
Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful.
Am i catching up to you?
While your running away to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me

listen to the song. superb.

random. i think ah neh looks good today. HAHA!
and the girls were dressed up =)

2:05 PM

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