yo.i have been arguing with my parents today and two nights back. all because of my fucking mother. just wish i can pay someone and let the person fuck my mum till she is satisfied man! fuck her. she suck to the core. the ultimate fucker of my life. the controller of my life. its just like she runs my life and i HAVE to obey her. what kind of life is this man? with my funking mum controlling me all the time just because my studies arent as good as my brother? does it mean he can learn judo while i cant even learn taekwando? does it mean that he can have a handphone line while i just haveto stick on a hi card only having $10 for 6 months? does it means that he can have a better computer than me? does it mean that he can have a thumbdrive while i dont? does it mean that life for me means it willbe harder just becuase my studies arent good. other people out there studies are worse than mine but they are doing so bloody fine. what teh fuck life do i lead man? so what if his studies are better? so what if he carries our family name? so what if he is a guy? so what if he is older than just TWO years? it doesnt mean that i haveto suffer injustice right? it is just totally UNFAIR. UNFAIR I MEAN IT. its just total biasness. he can go every where and any where he wants and return home as late as he wants without permisson while every thing i do i have to ask my bloody parents for permission. total UNFAIR. does it mean that i cannot use the home phone? my fucky brother has a handphone that is why he can dont use the home phone. your just think that i am in the wrong. the home phone only ME and ME alone use. no one else. my aunt also use. and she uses more than me. MORE as in MUCH MORE! my brother's friends can come to my house while mine, cant even step in without permission. my mum cant afford my brother to fail his piano exams but she can let me fail. she is so fucking desperate for my brother to pass his grade 6 that whenever i want to practise the piano, my mum will ask him to practise first. what kind of bloody life do i lead? i dont even have freedom. every thing i do is WRONG except studying. yea yea. i DO deserve this life. yea right. i am just fuckingly pissed off by what my fucking mum do. my dad is at least better. after every thing, he kissed me twice and comfort me. while my mum, go on rattling like a trumpet. bee bohh bee bohh continuously. if my dad did not even suggest having a computer for me, i wont even have a computer. becuase that old computer is my brother ALONE. NO one can touch it. i am just suffering so much. what is the point of living? i just live in agony, in dispair, in unhappiness, in injustice, in fustration all the time. what is life really all about. i just have NO idea.but the lucky thing is that i have friends around me. GOOD ones. like dionne( my sis), zane, k.kaiwen, jolene, andrea, clara, melaine,chieh-ling and many others. your should know who are your. i thanks you all for comforting me and helping me in times of need. expecially one person up there. if you bother reading this, which i think you wont, i really have to thank you for taking care of me, protecting me and not leaving me alone when there was a great misunderstnading. GOD has gave me such a good friend like you and i believe i should treasure you. i dont care what trouble i may get into for just talking to you. we have gone through alot together though as friends only. i will not forget what you have done for me. i shall end here le. veyr tired and fucking pissed off still. take care people and god bless.
*is life really what i am living now? i am still pondering and wondering real hard...
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